Here’s to kissing you forever. Happy anniversary darling. I had no idea who I was when I kissed his tender lips ten years ago. And in my limitation of what I could see of me, I had a limited view of what I could see of him. We were blind, bound by love, and someContinue reading “Love is Relentless”
I have never journaled regularly, at least not in the sense that many people do. When I competed professionally I kept a training journal, and I religiously tracked my sets, reps, intensities, and any important cues that I needed to remember, or that were particularly helpful. But I have never been one to reflect onContinue reading “Future Self Journaling: a 90 day recap on the best tool for self development you’re NOT using.”
Life is a but a spark. A spark is defined as a small fiery particle thrown off from a fire, alight in ashes, or produced by striking together two hard surfaces such as stone or metal. A tiny fiery particle that under the right circumstances can light an entire forest afire. Creating massive destruction and change.AnContinue reading “Spark Joy”
I SCREAM at the top of my lungs.The sound frightens me.Am I losing my mind?It feels as though I am…But I must SCREAM!I must say something!Because I never did when I had the chance… This trigger hurts. It hurts so much.I feel an immediate fight or flight response kick in.The wash of chemicals floods my body, AndContinue reading “Anger Management”
Oh my…happy birthday to this beauty of a human being. Like seriously… HE. IS. BEAUTIFUL. HE IS BEAUTY FULL. Nevermind the physical, please look deeper. This man here… He is a free diver’s dream… Endless depths of discovery…but can you hold your breath that long? Can you train, can you endure, can you be patientContinue reading “Free Diving – Part 2”
Integrity is an interesting trait. Defined as a “quality of being honest and having strong moral principles.” We often think about someone as either having integrity or not. Someone is either honest or dishonest. Someone is either acting within integrity, or without. And I don’t necessarily think it’s that black and white. It is,Continue reading “Radical Self Honesty?”
“I love you.”“And how do you love me?”“I love you as you are.” It’s a fallacy really.A lie told to one’s self. To believe that we see someone clearly enough to love them “as they are.” We like to think that we can see people clearly.Our parents, our kids, our lovers, our life partners and friends…. OurContinue reading “We LOVE As WE Are”
We are not meant to hold it in. None of it.
If you think about how we are created.
We inhale, then we exhale.
We eat, then we shit.
We drink, then we piss.
We are vessels that everything is meant to pass through. Even life.
“It’ll pass,” he says. But in the moment it doesn’t feel that way. It feels like I’m going to drown. Like the resistance in me, is going to suffocate me, and I’m going to be stuck in this loop forever. These words don’t console me, they condemn me… Reinforcing self doubt, anger, fear… TheContinue reading “The lies we tell ourselves; the truths we adopt.”